Slight Introduction

2008-08-10T18:13:59Z

Well I figured yall would like to know whose journal you are reading and who is going to be commenting on you all journals...so im going to give you a lil baccground information on ya gurl...not going to be into much detail. But you should get an idea of the type of person that I am...after reading this. Well for starters, my name is Jasmine, Im 20 years old...born in Los Angeles, California but has been living in Houston, TX for the greater part of my life. My parents....my father is deceased...i miss him so much...and my mother....thats my baby....lol. I have a younger sister...and i got a brother out there somewhere...but ummm...who cares?...lol..details later. Im coo people most of the time...until you cross me...or if you come off fake, fraud, or messy to me....cuz once that happens...its a wrap homie!...fa real. Im grown doin grown woman things...so therefore i dont need uneccessary drama or mess in my life...hell...i got enough of that...lol. When I say im doing grown woman things...i mean i have my head on straight. Im in college currently a junior attending Prairie View...majoring in Business Administration...I plan on getting the business aspect of things first and then attending law school so that i may one day own my own law firm. I have my own vehicle, i have a job, and ive been living on campus for the past two years but this comin saturday i will be moving into my own apartment. I have goals to achieve...and im going to reach them no matter how hard things get...so with that being said...Im not goin to let nothin or no one hold me bacc from being where I want to be in life. Real talk. Last but not least, i feel that people should know that I am a christian and I love the Lord. I was raised in the church...and as I got older I kind of strayed away...but im trying to get back to where I need to be. Im not one of those who feel as if im holier than thou...cuz BABY PLEASE!..not even. Im human just as everyone else....i make mistakes and sin just like everybody else. One thing im not going to do is force my religion upon anybody. So in return I ask that you dont judge me, because im not going to judge you...because at the end of the day that aint my job. Well with that being said..Im going to end this. Hopefully, this gives you somewhat of an overview of who I am. If you have any questions or comments...leave a comment....im out.

First entry

2008-08-07T20:40:14Z

Mann...I swear I just want to be happy again...I want to have that feelin where im finally at peace with the one I love. I will give whoever reads this the background on me and what im talkin bout later. But i have to post this before i go to work, cuz its on mah mind heavy. Im in love. I try to act like im not, i try to act like because he has put me thru so much its a wrap for him but in all honesty, i wait for his calls, i cant stop smilin when i hear from him or when i see him...he is all that i want....i try i try so hard to be with someone else, but i always end up comparing them to him. When he says i love you its all good. But I dont deserve this..imma damn good woman. When i have a man...i cook, i clean, i make sure he is satisfied sexually, what ever he wants, its his. This man was my first, mabye thats why im so stucc on him. Im rambling but hopefully it makes some sort of sense. He just came to see me....and now im sitting here with so many mixed emotions. I havent had sex with him since we broke up. I havent had sex period since we broke up. I miss him. I asked him did he miss me...he said hell yeah...and said even more now that he is seeing me. He touched my face and told me i was beautiful. Why did he have to cheat on me with his ex.....after all i had done for him. Why is he with her now....why is she pregnant. Hell if she is doin everything oh so right why is he still calling me. I try to sit here do me and just play my part....be here to vent when he needs it...be here to tell him i love him when he needs it. But what about me? I need him...well i take bacc i dont need nobody but the man above but its like damn!!! When am i gone get mines. When can i get bacc with you and actually trust that you want me and only me. I love him yes...but im not playin the fool again...i cant. In a way its like im happy that things are this way because hell he aint cheatin on me...i know what he is doin...she is dealin with the headache of worrying about what he is doing or who he is with ...but then again its like damn when i want to talk to you...i cant call because your chicc is there.....because i rather keep the peace in your house hold. This shyt is crazy and it hurts like hell. Ugh! I wish i could just stop lovin him, stop caring, stop hurting...but the more i try...the more i see that its not happenin and it succs more than you know. Ugh! If anybody reads this, your advice or comments are welcome....im out...ILL HOLLA!!

Ms. Jazzy C

Slight Introduction

First entry